| Same Person, New ID. |
[Aug. 22nd, 2007|12:36 pm] |
Yeah, um, I made a new livejournal.
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=91.7) mountainmonkee
Add me.
I have a feeling it'll mostly be a school-related journal though, cuz that's pretty much all I'm thinking about right now (and likely to be for the next two years). And work, which is school, so, yeah.
Maybe I'll still update this one as friends-only or something occasional.
I think I did this in an attempt to change aspects of myself I don't like (like writing long and boring lj posts, for example). Quitting smoking, quitting (err, limiting) drinking, working out and eating right.
Plus I like the user name. I'm a mountaineer now. (Though I'm afraid I will always be "just like water".)
Anyway, I have a meeting at 1:00, so I gotta goooooooooooo! |
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| I Love It. |
[Aug. 20th, 2007|11:42 am] |
I'm sitting in my office, wondering why I carried my laptop all the way to school.
I decided I'm going to be a Senator for the Graduate Student Senate. And join the outdoorsy club, of course. Tonight there is a SOGS (Social Order of Graduate Students) social meeting at The Library (the bar right in front of my apartment). Most grad students aren't from here either, so I'm not the only one looking to make friends (though I feel like I've already got plenty).
Yesterday my mom and I went to Howard's Knob (the top of a mountain, basically) and saw all of campus and Boone as if looking down onto a map. Amazing. We also went to Mystery Hill, which is one of thirty some places in the entire world where the laws of physics don't work quite right. Like, gravity works backwards. Very weird experience. Read about it.
This morning I ate two meat patties (that my mom made) and a tomato. (My mom went home last night, by the way.) Then I had THREE cheese danishes and a cup of coffee at the grad school student life orientation. (Getting my food/fitness thing under control starts tomorrow, also the first day of school).
I've decided I think I want to change my major to something like Student Development or something that will allow me to work at a college, specifically this one. It is so beautiful.
I was planning on taking four classes (even after being warned by my mom and several students that grad school isn't an undergrad workload), and along with my twenty hour/week assistantship, I should be careful. I was not dissuaded. Then today I get an email from one professor saying only students in his major are allowed in the class, so I gotta drop it. I guess it's fate.
Now I'm going to go around with my boss and my meet various people around campus (mostly presidents of clubs, I think) and then at 2:30 I have an orientation to my major and advising. |
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| So I'm in Boone, to stay for a while |
[Aug. 17th, 2007|09:30 am] |
Mommy bought me a nice bed, and some other crap. I learned I may have to move away to a possibly even smaller town for my internship (which only starts next year, but still, that may kinda suck). Uh, I'm feeling overwhelmed and don't know how to navigate this campus, this town, and traffic is almost as bad as in DC (I've been told it's cuz all the parents are here, but I'm not sure they contribute that much to 5pm traffic). My roommate is really cool. She bought a swing to sit right outside our door. It is very nice. My mom is really helpful. She's buying everything we need (that Audri's parents didn't already buy), and thinks of like, everything. Driving with her for eight hours was awesome. I got to hear a lot of cool stories, and just general bonding which was long overdue.
I can't watch movies on my computer (sound but no image) and we don't have internet in our apartment until the 24th. That sucks a lot. I have to unpack and organize and probably shop more, so it's not like I don't have things to do... it's just, I guess I'm addicted to the internet. Also, I need to figure out how to decorate my room and our apartment in general because the walls so just so.. white.
My orientation starts at 10:30 today so hopefully then I won't feel so in the dark about everything, and I guess I'll take care of all my internet requiring errands at school today too.
I miss Jason. I miss my friends. I miss home and I miss drinking. (And it's only been a few days!)
I feel like I could be doing fun stuff right now... like napping or tie-dyeing or berry picking or maybe even playing tennis or going through my grandmother's things. Yesterday Jason took Adam to her house and they took a bunch of stuff. Which is fine, I guess, it just feels really.. violating. Also, apparently it hadn't been made clear to Jason (because it hadn't been made clear to me) that my parents only really wanted them to take the furniture stuffs. It's whatever though, there are only a few things my mom mentioned that are important, and if they took them then I will just take them back! (Like this white on black raised painted (what is that called, like a flat sculpture?) - that's really crucial, and the rooster lamp, and some paintings, and plates that were hanging, and probably some other art.) But anyway, I'm sure my dad would've thrown away a bunch of stuff I wanted, and probably a bunch of other stuff that they took, so it's a good thing Jason went over there.
Oh yeah, so for those of you who haven't heard, my grandmother was finally moved to a nursing home on Monday because her dementia is at the point where she is unable to care for herself. It is so sad. This woman who practically raised me and was the best cook I've ever met now doesn't remember to eat at all. And looking through her things feels as if she died. I hope she remembers me when I visit. She doesn't know that I am her granddaughter, but she knows that I play an important role in her life, visiting regularly, and bringing her food. Now I'm 400 miles away. Ugh, it feels so strange and uncomfortable.
Anyway, I gotta go figure out where I gotta be. |
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| It's still Summer, right? |
[Aug. 8th, 2007|10:04 am] |
After reading Erynn's latest posts, I'm starting to get all sorts of anxiety about leaving. I mean, I was/am sad, but not like crying about it... yet. I think I am more excited to go, I just wish it wasn't happening so soon. At least she gets to go to her lover, I have to leave mine behind. That sucks most of all.
I haven't even packed, or learned how to use my new computer, or ran a bunch of essential errends, or anything important. I've just had a pretty fun and care-free summer. Yesterday Jason and I went to the beach. It was fantastic! (More on that and my weekend later.)
Today, the serious stuff begins. So yeah, now I'm off to the DENTIST! Yum. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 3rd, 2007|08:26 am] |
Alright! Up bright and early! Today.......... I gotta do some work! Like, harass the financial aid office at ASU. And go to my car insurance company to give them some papers! And clean under my bed. And maybe pack a box or two. And start cleaning out my computer (my parents get to keep it and it like, has no more memory). And shower and get ready for tonight's party at Erynn's! She's picking me up at 430 and I'm helping her put up streamers and such. :o)
Yesterday Jason took me to one of the coolest wilderness places I've ever been to in Montgomery County. You have to walk across two fallen trees to actually get there. We followed the creek for about an hour, saw an older couple hanging out in it in their underwear, saw a deer, lots and lots of green, tons of serious spider webs, fallen trees (we walked onto one above the creek and hung out for a bit), and other related forested stuff. I got bit by some kind of black flying bug, twice. I ran away from it. Jason caught a baby crawfish.
Also yesterday, I finally got to eat some crabs! We bought a dozen and ate them while watching School of Rock. I was soooooooo satisfied.
In the evening we went to Growler's where we ate creme brulee, and hung out. Wren got really upset with me, and I have no idea why. I suspect it is because I think I called him out on acting like a brat.
We put pennies on the railroad tracks and then went and found a bunch. Maybe Wren's mad at me because last week he put pennies on the tracks and decided he'd find them that night, and I was all "there's no fucking way you're gonna find a penny from last week, in the dark", and he went and looked, and I was right.
Maybe he was on his period.
I dunno. Either way, I hope he gets over it. I like Wren. I don't give away my friendship without thought, and it would suck if he didn't want to be my friend anymore. Because I am too blunt?
Anywaaaaaay........... ERYNN'S PARTY TONIGHT IS GOING TO BE AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| stuff i've been doing |
[Aug. 2nd, 2007|10:09 am] |
I went through all of yesterday thinking it was Tuesday, and telling people I can't stay out late (cuz "Wednesday morning I have a dentist appointment".... which I totally skipped, mistakenly).
So then last night I hung out with Andre and Jason and Danny and Dan and Lucy... and it was fun. We drank and talked and laughed and smoked cigarettes and ate Dan's awesome cooking and eventually watched the Simpson's movie. This morning my mom accused me of being an alcoholic.
Yesterday day I saw Transformers with Jason and his dad. I really enjoyed it, but that long-ass fight seen at the end was way too long, in my opinion.
Yesterday I also visited both of my grandmothers. The crazy one is moving to a nursing home next week. I wonder what my parents are going to do with all her stuff.
This morning I had sunny-side up eggs and cheese and grainy bread, and lots of water prior to that.
Now I'm going to Jason's, and he's going to take me to some cool outdoors spot that Adam showed him last week.
Possibly later I will go shooting with Wren.
I'll definitely go to the liquor store and get some boxes and like, start putting stuff in them. Moving on the 16th, possibly the 15th.
Tomorrow is Erynn's party. It's gonna soooooooo crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So yeah. Life is busy. I keep trying to get in touch with someone at the financial aid office at my school, but like, I think they have caller ID and just don't like me. |
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| Visit to Boone and Weekend Update |
[Jul. 30th, 2007|10:23 am] |
Visiting Boone with Jason was quite productive:
I signed a lease for an apartment walking distance from campus with a really chill and friendly girl called Audri. The apartment is located between a bar and a playground.
I got a job as a graduate assistant for the multicultural center, with my very own personal office in a lounge in the student union. (They called me back literally twenty minutes after my interview to tell me I'm hired. Yeah, I'm that awesome.)
I learned that unless I want to be made fun of, I will pronounce it Appala-chan. (Which I don't think I will because it is WRONG.)
I realized I need to stop sugar-coating the facts of my relationship with Jason, to myself. I love him, that's a fact. But we're both really fucking crazy, . I guess I'm looking forward to either solidifying our love or growing apart and up as individuals. I'm reminded of the quote "If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. And if they don't, they never were" (Kahlil Gibran).
I think I may have similar issues with commitment as Erynn. (By the way, I am soooo jealous of her recent trip to Cape May. And I'm slightly bothered that I wasn't invited, but I like, understand. I just need to go to the beach again before the summer ends.. if I ever wanna feel sane again this year.)
Anyway, I'm really excited to be moving to this teeny tiny town, right outside of which are tons of outdoorsy things to do... I'm all about that. However, I am terrified of the Winter.
Liquor is not served in bars in Boone. Just beer. I guess that's a good thing considering that I'm slowly but surely accepting that I have a drinking problem. Although, I think bringing a flask to a bar is perfectly legal.
Since getting back I've been going to a lot of bars with Wren. Last night Matt and I saw You Kill Me, after which we met up with Wren and went to the Harp & Fiddle. Tonight, Matt, Jason, and I are going to an AA meeting.
The night before last was Jason's mom's birthday. We (Matt, Jason, and I) went to Butler's Orchard and picked blackberries and flowers. We made her one fantastic looking bouquet! Dinner at the Flaming Pit with Jason's family in the evening. It was some of the most fun I've ever had with someone else's family. Afterward, we went to Danny's for the end of a party which was very fun too. I saw some people I haven't seen in a while, and met some new ones.
Yesterday, before the movie, I bought groceries for my grandmother, and then my nieces came over and I taught them to play Settlers of Catan. They're really great.
So, in conclusion, it was a good weekend, and good couple of days in Boone last week. (Except for the fact that it rained non-stop while we were there.... I thought there was dynamite in the mountains!) |
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| My Weekend |
[Jul. 23rd, 2007|06:23 pm] |
Matt sucks -- because clearly drugs are more important than promises and friendship.
Erynn sucks, but just a little, and it's whatever with her, anyway.
Wren is fucking awesome.
Natasha drinks too much. But I guess so do I. (Although I've gotten waaaaaay better about that lately!) Anyhow, she's cool. And she's going to Cancun.. which is... fucking cool too.
Dirk cooks well.
Tomorrow morning I'm going to Boone with Jason. I don't want to drive for seven hours, but I'm looking forward to.. stuff. |
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| Happy Happy to ME |
[Jul. 12th, 2007|09:21 pm] |
I'm so excited and anxious about tomorrow. Friday the 13th. Something good.
I took an ugly colored torn up skirt from Erynn, and my mom bleached and sewed it...... and now it feels like the most beautiful skirt in the world. I'm probably gonna wear it all weekend and at the end it will be green and brown and maybe red if I bleed on it. (It always turns out that I am on my period when camping. Seriously. Like, every time. No, once, in Colorado, I wasn't. But every other time!)
My parents gave me awesome gifts and a great card. I know it sounds cheesy, but I feel really lucky.
Basically, everything is like,
Yay!
(Except that at some point I have to grade a gazillion papers and show up to class on Monday night.) |
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| The Bigger Lesson |
[Jul. 11th, 2007|05:38 pm] |
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I like the "if you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all" rule, and I've realized that I haven't exactly been following it lately.
I don't like being called names, and I shouldn't name call.
I feel really bad about the drama.
I hate being in it.
And I don't like having enemies. |
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